The Life of a Young Mama

weekly blog about a mom of two.

Dear Mr. Donnie, — January 31, 2017

Dear Mr. Donnie,

WHAT THE F@*K ARE YOU DOOOOOIIIINNNNGGG, BRO?

It’s only been a little over a week since this spawn of Satan was sworn in as “president” and he’s already running our country into shambles. The guy is SICK.

Donnie, why do you think it’s okay to ban a group of people because of their religion? Remember our country.. the land of the free?  Or did you forget along with the fact that your wife is an immigrant as well… and your kids are not full blown Americans? That your buildings were most likely built by someone of a different race/religion? Along with the house you used to live in, the clothes on your back, and the cars you drive?

Or how about the people that guard your new place of residence? The people who are paid to protect your overly tan behind? Your maids? Your nannies because I’m sure you don’t have the time nor patience to take care of them yourself… YOUR FRIENDS? Your friend’s friends? Their family? Do you see where I’m going here?

Donnie…  you’re scared. You’re scared of the world you live in. You’re scared that someone will come in and take everything away from you. I get it. I’m scared too! But that fear should never turn into hate against an entire group of people who did nothing to you.

Hate creates loneliness. Hate for others turns into self-hate.

To the people have been affected by this man’s actions, just know that we love you and we appreciate you. We accept you. YOU ARE WANTED.

We need to stick together as a country, we CANNOT let this man nor the negative actions of anyone else drive us apart. We are strong but we are even stronger when we work TOGETHER. 

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Grow some. — January 22, 2017

Grow some.

Men all over the world,  I need you to do me one favor:

GET YOUR LIFE TOGETHER.

Not all of you but a good chunk of you are embarrassing. I’ve been told many of times that I am intimidating. They said they’re “not used to a woman who is doing everything with no handouts” and that they’re “impressed but intimidated because they feel challenged”.

Excuse me, WHAT? 

Am I doing something wrong? Is it wrong for me to have a job, a roof over my head, and a decent vehicle? Is it wrong for me to want a man but not need one? Or am I just attracting the wrong group of men?

I feel like if you have your sh*t together, no one should intimate you. My life is not perfect nor will I sit here and act like I don’t ask for help every now and then. I am doing what I thought I was supposed to do as a 24-year-old woman with two kids. To be honest, I don’t even feel like I’m doing enough!

These men that approach me don’t even take the time out to get to know me before judging my life.

I’ve been told I look expensive but little do they know I’m the queen of sales and rarely buy anything full price. I’ve been told that I look bougie but they don’t even realize I’ll pick eating chicken wings from the hood coney island over a five-star restaurant ANY DAY.

I’m sorry that you’re used to a female walking around with nothing going for themselves. I’m sorry that my lifestyle is something strange for you. Maybe you should stop looking for a wife in a woman who can’t even afford a piece of gum. Maybe you should have higher standards for yourself and the women you pick to stick your peen peen in.

I’m not knocking anyone who has one night stands or go into strickly sex relationships. But that’s not what I want. I guess expecting a man to pursue ME and not my pants is intimidating, right? Wow, you actually have to try to get to know me! It’s so hard I know.

And I repeat:

I KNOW ALL MEN ARE NOT LIKE THIS.

I genuinely appreciate the ones that are not. Understand that you are a rare breed and you should not settle as well!

But to the rest of you imbeciles…

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Never satisfied. — January 13, 2017

Never satisfied.

“The only thing standing between you and your goal is the story you keep telling yourself as to why you can’t achieve it.”

I want more. I don’t know how to get it but I want it. I think I may have set too many goals for myself this year… or is that even possible?

I’ve been battling back and forth with my job for the last couple of weeks. Things have been pretty hectic in the office and a lot of changes have occurred. I hate change but I hate being at a stand still. I’m confusing, I know.

Okay… I wouldn’t necessarily say I hate change but I hate sudden, unexpected change. Give me time to prepare and adapt. Give me some type of warning.

The changes that have happened recently have opened my eyes to my current position. It sparked a fire inside me to go get more.

BUT HOW.

I don’t know what path I should take to get there. I don’t know which way I should move. I am completely lost.

It feels like everyone around me is moving at speeds that I want to be. That growth and progression that I’m trying to get seems to come so easy for others.

Have you ever felt like you will never be satisfied? You constantly want more and more for yourself but will that desire ever die? Will I ever get to that level of satisfaction and contentment?

I try to tell myself that I am blessed every day. Maybe it is selfish of me to be so dissatisfied when there are plenty of others who are nowhere near my status in life. But if I shoot down my wants and desires for more, is that settling?

I’m tired of adulting. I think I gave the grown-up life a try but it’s not working out for me. I quit. lol

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