First and for most, I sincerely apologize to all of my followers! Life took over for a few weeks and I just couldn’t find the time to sit down and gather my thoughts well enough to produce a proper blog post. But life… life is great… like seriously, it’s wonderful.
A few weeks before 2016 appeared, I made a promise to myself to let a lot of things go. I promised to pump more positivity into my life. I also learned how to not sweat the things that didn’t really go my way. I had just closed two big chapters in my life: graduation and a relationship. I wanted to enter into 2016 by opening a chapter full of love and happiness.
January hit and I gave birth to a healthy baby boy. By February, I was offered two jobs with big companies in the Metro Detroit area. I never thought I would be sitting in my room trying to figure out who’s offer to accept. I did, however, make a decision to move forward with a great company that’s offering amazing pay and benefits. *Yay me!*
Another big thing also happened in February, something that needed to happen a long time ago…My ex and I carried so much hate in our hearts for 6 months. Six months of torture and hurtful conversations. I told you guys many times that he had moved on and seemed happy which in the end, I was happy about because I had done the same. We both dip and dabbled in the dating world, his more complicated than mine seeing how I was pregnant.
My ex and I carried so much hate in our hearts for several months. Six months of torture and hurtful conversations. I told you guys many times that he had moved on, seemed happy which in the end, I was happy about because I had done the same. We both dip and dabbled in the dating world, his more complicated than mine seeing how I was pregnant.
But in February, we finally were able to sit down and speak to each other like adults. We realized that as much as we thought we were happy, we were actually “miserable”. We shared the hurt that once was being thrown in each other’s faces, we shared the pain that both of us felt during our separation, and we laughed in the end.
He said one thing to me that continues to play over and over in my head: “what happened needed to happen” and I completely agree. We learned more about each other during those six/seven months than we knew our entire three-year relationship, whether it was good or bad. I learned more about myself if anything!
I finally was able to understand myself. I learned how to control my anger better. I learned how to communicate effectively. I learned that a lot of stuff just doesn’t need a reaction! (That was my biggest problem) But most important, I figured out my self-worth and what I expected/deserved from people that decided to take a stroll into my life.
After multiple conversations, we decided that a change was way over-due. We started over. I mean completely over. We decided to bury whatever bad things that happened while we were together and when we weren’t. We also decided to get rid of the negative people that affected our lives and our relationship. But the biggest thing that was missing in our lives was God so we decided to make him our number one priority.
I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason. But it’s so hard sometimes to continue to believe that when bad things occur in your life. You just have to let go and let God do what needs to be done. In the end, he will show you what you need to see and answer every question you may have had. Don’t doubt his work.